| dear friends,
again, it's been too long. i appreciate those of you who are still reading with me here on xanga. i love logging in after extended periods of time and reading the comments on my most recent posts. but what i love even more, is going back and reliving the journey that you all have taken with me. i don't always write about the most light-hearted topics, but regardless, they are 100% me, 100% real, 100% honest. and really, what more, as a reader, can you ask for?
as for an update on my life...i don't even know where to begin. i suppose my last post mentioned europe, so, i'll tell you that europe was the greatest experience of my life. best 3 months, hands down. since then, life has been full of fabulousness, drama, food, wine, meeting new people, and happiness. i always used to have some sort of dramatic story to tell, but not now. my life has no drama, no major complaints. i have great friends, a job (which in these economic times is a god-send), my health, my family, a good life, and a boyfriend that i am more than crazy about. don't get me wrong, my life may seem perfect, but it's far from it. i'm just fortunate to not have any misfortune at the moment. and as my american friends and readers get ready for thanksgiving in the coming weeks, i am oh-so-greatful for my present situation.
i'm sure that i'll have another long hiatus before returning again. but if you want to get a more consistent picture of my life, you can follow me on twitter (@erin_gee) or check out my blog, the Haus of Hybrid.
i hope you are all well and that life is giving you all that you deserve.
with love.
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| when you're anticipating something, the worst thing you can do is count down to the event. it makes time drag on sooo much. *sigh* 21 days until NYC! 26 days until Europe! |
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| my typically drama-free, routine, mundane life has had some spice over the last few days. without getting into too much detail, i have found myself in a perplexing situation. normally i am very tuned in to how i am feeling about things in my life. my emotional reactions to things are rarely a surprise for me and i am always able to articulate myself and my feelings. which is why i was surprised on friday night to be blindsided by some news that not only gave me no words to formulate a response in an acceptable amount of time, but also created an emotional barrier. the events of friday night have illustrated that i can't always know my exact feelings towards a particular event. but at the same time, friday night has allowed me to have a response that i didn't even think was possible. when asked how i am feeling about the situation, i honestly can't even provide a response without getting into a 4 hour explanation. have i reached the absence of feeling? or am i so over-wrought with emotion that i can't even decipher what it is that i am feeling? |
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| is not this the true romantic feeling -- not to desire to escape life, but to prevent life from escaping you? -thomas wolfe |
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| - i was on ESPN in july playing team USA - did anyone see me?
- won silver at the pan-am games in brazil those are my 2 highlights. i leave for NYC aug 13 for 10 days, then to toronto for 4.
i hate this feeling of uncertainty that i have. it's eating away at me. i don't know what the future holds for me. i have no idea what i want to do with my life. i want to escape but i can't afford it. i don't want to work some useless job to make money to leave because i don't want some stupid job. please donate to my travel fund? |
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